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| Hmm just thought I'd post as an update to what's going on.
The job is still going great although it's getting kind of annoying. Annoying in the sense that as a graphic designer you have to understand that you will go through these things where whenever you look at a commercial or ad, you are constantly analyzing if the type is lined up straight and the design and other foolishness.
Well the company I work for designs wall graphics for sports and other entertainment people. I mostly work with designing the packaging and resizing the images.
Well I've been working on all these Disney graphics and I cannot stand Hannah Montana, the Jonas Brothers, or High School Musical right now. I hate seeing those darn Hannah Montana boxes at stores that I go to because some of the same graphics they use, I had to use. Ugh
I mean even the name Hannah Montana is annoying itself.
At least with sports I can see different players and teams.
The church situation has calmed down although I still think about it everyday. I'm obviously in the minority with people in the church on even people outside the church who knew I went there. I don't care though. I know where God is leading me and I have found support from bloggers who frequent my other blog and have went through similar situations. There is so much depth to the situation that it's ridiculous and I've found blogging to be a good outlet.
I will be back at HU for homecoming Lord willing. I've got my plane ticket, hotel room, and rental car so everything's in place. I look forward to seeing some friends and hopefully seeing HU win the football game.
And what's up with alumni having to pay. I'M AN ALUMNI....no j/k
See ya.
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| OK I'm cool now :)...I love writing.
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| Well I was cool for a minute but today was pretty rough.
To end a relationship on a church? I don't even have any grudges against the church, and speaking with one of the brothers from the church the other day, there may have been some misunderstandings on my side and on their side as well in relation to some of the things that caused me to say "I'm gone".
I mean to me, and someone else used this example, it's like this. Think of a high paid superstar athlete who performs great on the basketball court. Everybody loves you...until you break your arm or until you decide that you may want to do something else with your life. They didn't like you for you at all...they liked you for what you did.
Break it down to a more personal level. If two people are dating/courting whatever you yourself would like to call it, and let's say they are both artists. They paint in the studio together, they draw together, and they go to art shows together. The guy loves that she's into art just like him, but more importantly he loves her for her...her character, her spiritual aspects, her personality...the art and other things she does are a part of her, but he doesn't love her because she does does things. So if the woman decided one day that she doesn't like art anymore, and that she's headed in a new direction to be, say, a scuba instructor and move to Washington, he wouldn't love her any less and say, ok we can't paint or do art together anymore...I'm ending this.
That's how I feel right now. I never said I was abandoning God. I never said I was abandoning Christ or the faith. God is still and always will be first in my life and I try to live my life accordingly everyday. There may be some things I disagree with in the church that I'm leaving (may come back if the miscommunication gets settled), but we are two believers in Christ and I like her for her...not because she goes to a certain church. And I wouldn't have shunned her from going to the church which she was under the impression of.
Now should two people have the same general direction in life? Of course. People don't have to have the same hobbies, interests, etc, but a similar direction is needed and I felt like we were going in the same direction. Seeking after God, career ambitions, other similar interests such as drawing and movies, personality traits...I mean it's funny too because I'm very impatient and she's very patient. Both can be bad at times and sometimes both can be good. You never want to mull over a decision for too long, but you never want to make a hasty one either and she was always right there to let me know "ok slow down and be patient" but at the same time I was always there like "ok you need to make a decision at some point"...but she ends it because I decided to stop going to a certain church?
And don't get me wrong, no church is perfect, but I felt I had to go because certain things affected me greatly in my spirit. And if I sit and talk with leadership which they have admitted that some of the things were indeed out of order, then there is a possibility I may come back. It's not like I left because "the pastor made me mad" or some foolishness like that.
But to end it because I stopped going to the same church? Nothing changed about me and there was no notice from her that it did. I mean to tell you the truth, I would feel much better if it ended because of something about my character or something. You know like if I started treating her bad, or completely changed the way my personality and character flowed, but nothing has changed. It goes back to the examples above...yes I went to that church, but it doesn't define who I am. My relationship with Christ reflects who I am.
I'm out....maybe be back later....1
Oh yeah, am I wrong???please let me know
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| Thought I should write something and update yall on everything briefly...to make it quick:
Girlfriend just ended relationship because I'm leaving the church we attend (im not abandoning God or the faith...just some things going on that i cant take part in anymore at the church)...i mean i could see if there were some major issues going on between us but...yeah
got a job as a designer at fathead...praise God...20 dollars an hour...its only for 2-3 months but good experience and maybe a future position
im starting to work on my art again
im in detroit for the time being...may be moving back to VA but now just to get away from detroit
the detroit lions suck
i now blog about my specifically my daily musings in my christian life here: laidbackchristian.blogspot.com, check it out
again referring to point number 1, very sad right now...probably wont be interested in a relationship for awhile (it depends...at least not right now)...and its already hard enough finding a girl who is pressing after God with a good head on her shoulders...back to square 1...i come from this asking what was the point of this whole year?? why did i meet her and develop feelings for her and get deep into a relationship only to have it end on a sour note (and i didnt leave my church for little reasons...read the other blog for my story...and i dont inderstand why two believers in Christ must go to the same church) only God knows and i cant wait to find out...im sad definitely but also know that i need to continue to pray and read my Word, and God will guide me...i mean before this summer, i wanted to stay in VA so bad to stay apart of the church that im now leaving but i look back and i couldnt find a job to save my life so i could stay down there...couldnt even get hired as a waiter...so with my poo face on, i knew i had to head back to detroit...at the time i was asking God what was He doing, but of course He knows...the whole summer while unemployed, money kept coming out of nowhere...i had the graduation money, then graduation check were still coming in June and july...once that started to get low and i was nearly broke, bam, a 1500 dollar check from HU...turns out i was supposed to pick it up way back in january...that sustained me until i got the job at fathead which was really unexpected because i thought i did bad on my interview...but the job is awesome..i get to shoot nerf guns at everybody in the office (we have wars), i can wears jeans and tshirts, listen to my ipod or youtube while i work, and take breaks whenever i want...super awesome
now im here at this point...looking back you can always see how God works, so there should be no doubt about where He is leading you next...i can see how His hand moved throughout my life this summer and even with the recent disappointment with the girl, there is a purpose and ill see it in due time
oh and as you can see, im not in the mood for good grammar or punctuation or whatever you wanna call it tonight...
ill be back when you see a new weblog entry...duh
good night
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| There were two farmers who had been praying for rain for their crops. One farmer prayed to God to bring rain for his field and did nothing to his field. The other farmer prayed for rain and prepared his field, and planted seeds in preperation for the rain. Which one do you think actually believed God was going to make it rain? The moral is, whatever you pray for, pray in faith and prepare like God is going to actually do it, or else you are basically praying to God and at the same time saying I really don't think you can make this happen until I see it happen.
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